I’ve not written much recently. Despite the NaNoWriMo rush to conquer the highest peaks of the graph mine has stayed resolutely at the same plateau for about a week.
Now I could offer you an almost exhaustive list of excuses,
- I’m still grieving and this time of year is too hard for me emotionally
- I’ve had a cold and been feeling unwell
- It’s so close to Christmas and I have both boys birthday’s to sort out in December
- As a single parent I have no one here to help me out
- Other people are so competitive with their 50,000 words written in the first week of November, I prefer to take things slower
- Some people haven’t even written as much as me, so actually I am doing fine, what else is the 29th for except have a last mad dash to the finish line!
- I’m procrastinating
- I’m a rebel at heart
As I said a long list and all true in one way or another.
I have found the last few days difficult. However much I try and avoid grief, put on a brave face and carry on it somehow finds me and wallop I’m down and out for the count blubbing!
It doesn’t help that I have been feeling under the weather.
Oldest son has a birthday 9th December and youngest son on the 20th – such bad planning!
I don’t have someone to help cook the tea, do the ironing or play taxi driver and ferry the boys to and fro to their activities. As it is I am sitting typing this at the local tennis club while oldest son has a lesson – multitasking is second nature.
But the truth is I don’t need excuses, I certainly don’t need to explain to you why I’ve stopped writing for NaNo. This is after all my decision and I long ago came to the conclusion that I know best when it comes to things concerning me.
Many people are already supportive; I have made the most wonderful friends through taking part, including a Facebook group that has grown into an excellent source of encouragement and inspiration. It amazes me what a close group of friends has developed sharing so much and all having this common bond of writing. Kindred spirits who understand.
I have learnt a tremendous amount from the experience too, firstly that planning is essential, I know I didn’t do enough, but never realised until I really got going with the story.
Characters that didn’t even exist in the original book of Esther have appeared in my head and on the page, and my heroine has a back story that I would love to develop into a prequel, perhaps long term this could even be a trilogy?
Because the most important thing is I have over 25,000 words I didn’t have before, I have a viable story and once I’ve ironed out a few kinks I know I CAN write this.
The excerpts I have shared have been well received and I have people wanting to find out what happens next.
Maybe November wasn’t the best time to write etc. etc. – whatever the excuse, the reason, I know this is the right decision for me to take rather than blindly write on regardless.
Ultimately I want quality over quantity and although the NaNo experience has been fantastic for this year it is time to call it a day.
Next year? Who knows … as I said I have a prequel bubbling away.
Now excuse me but I have to go, the room here is noisy, not especially conducive to writing, I much prefer quiet, but maybe I just need space without the children calling me or the household distractions being on hand, whatever the reasons or excuses for or against I am writing because in the end it’s what I choose to do!